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tamingthemuseTitle: The Pain of Love
Fandom: Supernatural (Castiel/Jimmy/Dean)
Prompt: Possessed
Warnings: Slash, Sexual Situations
Rating: NC-17
Summary: Jimmy's still in there and he feels everything.
Jimmy remembered the first time Dean had made love to Castiel very well. He remembered the pain Castiel hadn’t noticed, but that had ripped through him. Dean had been so rough, so urgent. He hadn’t used any lube the first time, in his defense Dean didn’t know they needed any.
The passion had been true though. Castiel had been so confused by his sudden lust after a human, but Jimmy had felt it building up for ages. Since the first time Dean had defied him, ignored him, said the word no. There was part of Castiel that had always hated being the lap dog for a silent dog and Dean’s rebellious nature fuelled that side of him.
This had all happen outside of a truck stop, Sam sleeping in the car. Jimmy remembered the feeling of stone digging and scratching at his back as Dean lifted him up, thrusting deep inside of his body. It’d been so fast and hard they didn’t even bother to kiss.
The passion had burned so bright and so blinding that even Jimmy felt it, and when Castiel orgasmed he did too. It’d been so beautiful he’d nearly cried.
But the next day it was Jimmy who noticed the pain. The horrible ache of sitting, the blood ruining down his back from the cuts and some glass and he’d rather never recall hard landings that Castiel often made. He’d felt worse pain, being a vessel was about that, but never in that part of him.
It wasn’t only one time either.
The second time, after much ignoring of the topic, had taken place months after. Dean had almost gotten himself killed again and Castiel could no longer ignore the ever goings thoughts about his ward. They kissed then for the first time and unspokenly admitted feelings neither of them thought they’d feel. Dean his love for another man, and Castiel his love and devotion for a human.
That’s why when Castiel had left him for the first time in so long it’d been near impossible to look into Dean’s eyes.
He tried to pretend he didn’t remember, act as if nothing had happened. He’d gone back to his wife, but his heart wasn’t there anymore. She wasn’t the woman he remembered and he sure the hell wasn’t the man she’d married. He’d gone to see his daughter and she’d even tried to keep her from him, but it wasn’t possible. It also was possible for him to go back to his old life even if that was what he might have wished.
Angels and burst into his life and then threatened to take over his daughters. He couldn’t have that. He sacrificed everything for his family, like Jesus on the cross he’d given up his body to torment for the better of another. He didn’t even believe in Jesus, but these days the similarities were getting hard to ignore.
He couldn’t remember the last words he’d spoken to Dean were but he knew what he wished they would have been. Jimmy doubted Dean ever understood that the feelings Castiel had for him were echoed in his own heart.
Fandom: Supernatural (Castiel/Jimmy/Dean)
Prompt: Possessed
Warnings: Slash, Sexual Situations
Rating: NC-17
Summary: Jimmy's still in there and he feels everything.
Jimmy remembered the first time Dean had made love to Castiel very well. He remembered the pain Castiel hadn’t noticed, but that had ripped through him. Dean had been so rough, so urgent. He hadn’t used any lube the first time, in his defense Dean didn’t know they needed any.
The passion had been true though. Castiel had been so confused by his sudden lust after a human, but Jimmy had felt it building up for ages. Since the first time Dean had defied him, ignored him, said the word no. There was part of Castiel that had always hated being the lap dog for a silent dog and Dean’s rebellious nature fuelled that side of him.
This had all happen outside of a truck stop, Sam sleeping in the car. Jimmy remembered the feeling of stone digging and scratching at his back as Dean lifted him up, thrusting deep inside of his body. It’d been so fast and hard they didn’t even bother to kiss.
The passion had burned so bright and so blinding that even Jimmy felt it, and when Castiel orgasmed he did too. It’d been so beautiful he’d nearly cried.
But the next day it was Jimmy who noticed the pain. The horrible ache of sitting, the blood ruining down his back from the cuts and some glass and he’d rather never recall hard landings that Castiel often made. He’d felt worse pain, being a vessel was about that, but never in that part of him.
It wasn’t only one time either.
The second time, after much ignoring of the topic, had taken place months after. Dean had almost gotten himself killed again and Castiel could no longer ignore the ever goings thoughts about his ward. They kissed then for the first time and unspokenly admitted feelings neither of them thought they’d feel. Dean his love for another man, and Castiel his love and devotion for a human.
That’s why when Castiel had left him for the first time in so long it’d been near impossible to look into Dean’s eyes.
He tried to pretend he didn’t remember, act as if nothing had happened. He’d gone back to his wife, but his heart wasn’t there anymore. She wasn’t the woman he remembered and he sure the hell wasn’t the man she’d married. He’d gone to see his daughter and she’d even tried to keep her from him, but it wasn’t possible. It also was possible for him to go back to his old life even if that was what he might have wished.
Angels and burst into his life and then threatened to take over his daughters. He couldn’t have that. He sacrificed everything for his family, like Jesus on the cross he’d given up his body to torment for the better of another. He didn’t even believe in Jesus, but these days the similarities were getting hard to ignore.
He couldn’t remember the last words he’d spoken to Dean were but he knew what he wished they would have been. Jimmy doubted Dean ever understood that the feelings Castiel had for him were echoed in his own heart.
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Date: 2009-09-08 03:19 am (UTC)Hope to read more from you.
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Date: 2009-09-08 04:02 am (UTC)I don't tend to right Supernatural too much, but I'll try to tame my muse to get inspired by it more, if not I plan to be around here for a while.