tamingthemuse | Prompt 222 - Methodical Thinking - Shortcomings of Logic - Sarbear12456

Title: Shortcomings of Logic
Fandom: Sanctuary
Prompt: Methodical Thinking
Warnings: Melodrama
Rating: K
Summary: Helen ponders what logic means in her life.

Helen was a devotee of logic. It dictated how she lived her life, almost every decision she made. Her world was a strange one, but logic in it did emerge. As the world changed around her, fashions, wars, governments and people, thought remained constant. It was relied upon, a friend. But methodical thinking offered no joy, no solace, no love. Rational thought dictated that she should need no joy, solace or love. Her greatest challenge had, and always would be, reconciling logic with her values and emotions. Logically, John Druitt should strike neither fear, nor love, into her heart.

Love was an emotion he once evoked. He was willing to see her as an equal when women were second-class citizens unable to comprehend the simplest of ideas. He had compassion for those rejected by society, as she was compassionate for those rejected by humanity. They were so similar and in love, there came a time when she couldn’t differentiate between what she valued and what he encouraged her to value.

Fear had been dominant as she confronted him in the alley, more than a century past. She feared what she would find, what she would see, what the confrontation meant for her future. She feared the outcome of that evening to the point she had almost run home. She feared she had lost him. The emotion was summoned within her again as he appeared in her home, her Sanctuary. With her daughter close by, she envisioned every possible outcome, where her daughter discovered who her father was. When the world discovered she still harboured feelings for one of the most vicious killers of all time. She sought a logical solution when none existed.

Amidst the threat of global uprisings by abnormals, her emotions had been in turmoil. She wanted to love him again, wanted comfort as once again an impossible task was placed on her shoulders. But it was not a solution that encouraged success in their war against the Cabal, nor eternal happiness. She wanted to fear him again, burn away her confused emotions with a potent mixture of hate, fear, disgust, moral superiority and anger. But this course of action would mean losing a valuable asset in their battle and distracted her from a larger threat.

In truth, methodical thinking could not solve a problem concerning emotions to the degree this one did. Ultimately, methodical thinking had so little say in her worlds. Her friends, her daughter, where connections to the world she could not function without. The work that was central to her life was driven by passion for discovery and respect for the creatures of the world she sought to protect. Logic was a tool she used to protect those she cared for. Her emotions were her guiding light as fashions, wars and governments changed. Her emotions anchored her to the people who could provide her with joy, solace and love.

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