132 - Trap - Rights of a Monster - Gumdroprain - Original

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Title: Rights of a monster (1/?)
Fandom: Original
Prompt: 132-trap
Warnings: None
Rating: G
Summary: My looks can kill, really.
 

No one earns love.
That's one hard lesson to learn. Especially, if no one's willing to tell you that you're loved.
 
You think that a royal princess of the country would be told more often that she's loved. I mean, she's surrounded by her parents, her servants, and her people. Shouldn't someone be able to tell me that I’m worthy of love? But, I'm starting off wrong. I just been told that I can't blame other people and I'm trying but… this is harder than it seems.
 
I mean, I can just say that it's cruel fate that I'm the youngest princess out of the bazillion wives that the king has. Before I was even born, the king said that I would be used a bartering ticket for other nations. Okay, he never actually said that word for word, but that’s what he means. I’m just another pawn to be used for alliances and such, like my ten other sisters.

The only problem with that grand scheme was that he didn’t know what I looked like. I was the ugliest baby ever born because my mom died at the sight of me. They say that I was bewitched by enemies of the empire and that I would bring doom to the kingdom.

I was going to be killed at birth because of that but thankfully, some kind person intervened and saved me. I never met that person though as the rules of the court states death for anyone who speaks against the king. The person’s last wish was that I would live and the king was forced to respect it.

I’ll be honest. Before all of this happened, I cursed that person. I hated being trapped in this life style. I was locked up in the middle courts, hidden away from the world’s view. No one from outside can see me and no one from inside would have to bear with my looks. That’s my own burden to share. I’m locked inside a stone house with walls of mirrors. In every room, all I can see is my hideous self. It doesn’t help that for all my years of living, I was never given anything to do. I don’t have the right to learn how to read and write. I don’t need to attend any princess lessons, because who wants to marry a nobody?

For a long time, it was torture in that house. I lived in darkness as I would never open my eyes. If I didn’t stare at my own reflection, the only other place I could stare at is the sky. I figured out that the if the roof leaks, there must be a hole, and what a terribly small hole it was. I could still see the bright blue dot and I knew that’s what people must call the sky.

Yes, I can hear them outside as they past my house, rushing past it, calling it the den of the evil monster. The king had a grand tale of how he was engaged in a hard battle with demon. Oh, he defeated it but it could not be killed. That’s why he keeps it locked up to make sure it would never terrorize the world again.

Sometimes, I want to open my eyes and look at myself again, but I’m afraid that all the stories are true. I don’t want to think that it’s in my blood to be a terrible beast who only brings bad luck. But, I knew it was true and that I deserved to be locked up like this. I didn’t want to be free because I don’t want to kill anybody with my appearance. That’s why the servants never come in and only pushes the food through a door.

I remember thinking what would happen if I just stopped eating? Would the whole kingdom rejoice? I know the king would, but would anyone cry for me? In those times, I didn’t know what crying was. I just remember a servant telling another servant to stop crying as she’ll go home soon and can visit her family. It sounded very sad, especially when the crying servant says she missed her family so much though. She said that she loved her family so much it was painful to be away from them, especially since she has to come and serve a monster.

I knew that I was a monster because even when I’m doing absolutely nothing, I’m hurting someone and causing them to cry. And still, I wanted to know what love was and how do you earn it. I’m a real beast.

TBC

Comments

[tekia.livejournal.com]

Oh, how enchanting and captivating! I'm looking forward to more.

[gumdroprain.livejournal.com]

Sorry for the late reply, life was hectic... And really? I thought this was absolutely poo as I was just forcing myself to ramble and write.... So, thank you so much for bearing with this story and actually liking it a bit... ^^

[hachinoyou2sasu.livejournal.com]

Y-YOU AND YOUR TRAGIC HEROINES. (Are you trying to kill me?)

"And still, I wanted to know what love was and how to earn it. I'm a real beast."

DEAD.

Waiting for the next one.

[gumdroprain.livejournal.com]

Oh my goodness, who's that character??!! They look so cute!!
.... Gah, does this mean I have to continue and finish a multi-chapter fic? -0.0- ... kay! ^^

[hachinoyou2sasu.livejournal.com]

Finland~. Also Santa Claus (not really).

Yes. Yes it does. "Kay!" is right. You don't have a choice.